Musings on the Self: Judging Others

I think, of all the sins I struggle with, judgement is most likely the worst. Beyond lying, and beyond laziness, judging others and being judgemental are my greatest challenges in living as Christ lived.

I have my justifications, but those are simply lies I tell myself. When other people do not follow the laws, or the Law, I get miffed. I take it as a personal affront, when it is actually an affront against the nation or God. It has nothing to do with me, but I still get angry.
I have tried to cut it out, but I’m not quite there yet. I’m happy I’ve finally come to the realization that it really isn’t my problem how others conduct themselves. That my problem lies with myself. And speaking of my problems….

Of course, I am in no position to judge others. I myself do exactly what they do. That is what Jesus meant when he said, “He who is without sin, cast the first stone,” and, “Look to the plank in your own eye before you attempt to help your brother with the speck in his.”
So, friends, continue praying for me. I will continue trying.

To illustrate my point, the other day I was driving along and someone thought I was going to slow. That, in itself, is not something that normally would anger me: I have no idea where the person was going, or why they were going there, and it is his right to go as fast as he wants (incidentally, it is also his right to accept the ticket he will inevitably get for going faster than the speed limit).

No, his need to go faster than me was not what drew my ire. The fact that his destination was less then thirty seconds away, and he ended up getting in front of me and slowing me down needlessly; that is what made me angry. Had he gone around me, and sped off, leaving me in the dust, I would have been perfectly fine. No, he had to gain several nanoseconds at my expense.
Now, I am sure it never crossed his mind that he was slowing me down for no great gain. He was focused on his destination. No, the problem lies with me. I felt he did it on purpose, a baseless accusation. This made me angry, for if he did it on purpose, he was attempting to hurt me with no good purpose in mind. In fact, I am sure, now, that he did not do it on purpose.
However, my reaction to my anger was unpleasant. I quickly sped past him and cut him off before he could turn, putting the lives of myself, my wife, and my daughter at risk. Such is unacceptable, especially in one who professes to be a Christian.

This got me thinking about what the Bible says. After a moment of soul searching and finally confessing that I had sinned, I began to consider judgement as a whole. People make judgements all the time, and while practicing sound judgement is not, in itself, a sin, assuming a role as Judge against someone is. This line of thinking led me to considering the ways in which God judges us, and how it seems that He sometimes blesses those who are ungodly. As I was thinking that, I thought to myself, “Who am I to question whom the King decides to bless or curse? Was I there when He made the heavens and the earth? Was I there to hear the secrets he whispered to the angels? Was I even there when he rose up David to be the King of Israel?”

No, it is not for us to judge others blessings, but to be joyful in the fact that, in our time of need, the King remembers us and ministers to our needs. We do not know His thoughts, nor do we even know what goes on in the hearts and minds of our fellow men, therefore we have no right or even ability to judge. We can judge actions, and would be foolish not too, but we cannot judge hearts.

Thus, when someone flies past you on the freeway, talking on his cell phone, remember that God is watching him, but also you. He will reward each of us as He sees fit, and we cannot question his judgement.